Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Mondays are no different to me than any other day.....

Many people dread Mondays.  They don't want to get back into the swing of things.  Many dread it because they have been drinking and don't want to stop.  Some don't want to do back to work.

But to me, Mondays are just another day.  Mondays make me cry just as much as Tuesdays, Wednesdays or even Saturdays.  I don't get a break.  The same issues I was hurdling the day before are going to cause me to continue jumping through hoops the next day too.

Today was an extraordinarily rough day.  Having 4 kiddos on the spectrum makes life a challenge.  Homeschooling, running a full-time business and taking care of the kids is emotionally and physically exhausting.  Did you notice I didn't even mention housework....yeah....that doesn't always happen.

I joke about living the movie Groundhog Day, but it is so true.  Everyday is hard as I repeat the same information I did the day before.  Certain kids do not remember if they have had their meds or even how to read the time on the clock.  Letter sounds are not sticking and then they don't remember activities we need to go to, even though they are written on the calendar and I give reminders throughout the day.  

Anxiety issues cause me to need to "walk on eggshells" so that I don't have to worry about meltdowns.  That would bring a whole other set of issues.  And I have to walk a fine line between upsetting one child while working to keep another child from being upset.

Throw all these issues in with the child who has a massive attitude and defiant issue and BAM! I am about to have an anxiety attack myself. Oh yeah....I don't have meds like they do, like most moms I just suffer though.

I am trying to survive with calming techniques.  This week, warm apple cider seems to be helping me.  Lots and lots of prayer also, oh and a good cry a couple times a day.  Just long enough to let out the frustrations and regroup.

So I think I might start to go on strike on Mondays.  It's always a frustrating and busy day.  Maybe next Monday I will just not get out of bed.

We did have some fun times today.  Caty and I made dinner, chicken big bowl (a Japanese dish to go with our country study), we watched a Dr. Who episode as a family for the kids history class, we made it through Minecraft classes with minimal incidents, and the quail eggs came in the mail.  Lydia did great at Horseback riding.  So I guess I will just craw in bed and wait for Tuesday to start.

1 comment:

  1. I am so sorry you are struggling right now. I have always admired you and how much you do with each of your children. I wish I lived closer so I could help in some way...sending a few prayers your way